Side Bar: I must say, I feel somewhat vulnerable writing this, so if it helps just one person, I am grateful.
As I sit here, I want to write a blog on…nothing came to mind.
So I explored websites and Facebook looking for ideas. Then…
“POW!”, a photo unexpectedly appeared of me at an event. “Eeck, I look like caca,” I said to myself, feeling embarrassed.
“POW” I had my topic… And with this “POW” my thinking shifted.
I don’t jump to be in pictures because I feel like I take a terrible picture. Maybe every now and then, I get a good shot.
This extreme of yuckiness for myself concerned me. “Why do I feel that way? How can I be so cruel to myself? What is my fear causing this sadness?
And then the shift happened…
I was looking at myself and thought, I do not have to judge how I look. It doesn’t matter from a minute in time. I am not yucky. I look how I look and I was having a good time with loving and supporting people. I am entitled to be me. There is no time for hurt and judgment.
With this, I instantly stopped my “stink’in thinking” and realized that I was not treating myself with kindness, respect, acceptance and love. If that is what I look like, then that is me at that moment and I will nurture and love my being and re-nurture my soul, everyday in every way.
I am who I am and I release the fear of not being good enough. I am beautiful just the way I am. I was born good enough.
When I look at my picture now, I practice non-judgement. I just don’t go there. I see and accept with love in my heart.
I am me, much more than a costume and I value the person I have become. No more judging myself. Love, respect and compassion to myself and other’s.
Next time though, just in case…suck in.